A day in a life of a true hero.

live journal is lame just as i suspected it to be... And just for those who want to yell at me .. Myspace is lame to

Ehh... To me lalty It seems that I've become very distant from alot of my friends or they have become distant from me... When ever i see them it seems as if that theres something missing.. something just isn't the same.. like theres this gap between us to the point it almost akward to be with them... There are the slight few friends that things will always be the same and never will change.. i don't know if we are just growing apart or if its just me.. I dunno Hopefully things will turn around.. Hopefully

wellp I just had a very good weekend.. I got to spend some "alone" time with felicia.. I was "Amazing" lol the weekend has just been really relaxfull and just i guess full-filling.. I dunno just hanging out with friends and not having a care in the world .. I got a job and i got the most amazing girl I don't need anything else right now I am happy for like once in my life I really don't want this feeling to change.. But like all good things i knowthat it will eventually die but as of now I'm loveing this "high" that I'm living with right at this momment so i'm goint to shutup before i loos it hehe love you all

Well my life has been the same for to damn long.. Its time for some changes.. I'm looking for a job.. hopefully i can get back into my old shop.. But right now i need to look into getting some money.. I need to pay my insurance.. So i'm thinking of selling my guitars and amp. I don't need them right now anyways... When i get a job I'll just buy a new one.. I really need to start hanging out with some of my old friends again.. I just haven't been contempt with myself as of late. theres been something missing.. and maybe thats it.. who knows.. I don't think man kind can ever be satisfied with them self.. we may be happy from time to time but the feeling never last.. There is only really one thing in my life that make me happy right now.. And that of course felicia. when ever things are bad and i am down on myself i think of her and i find happiness :) But soon enough things will be better. I will find a job and get back on my own once again.. Me and my friends will have a place to hang out with out and arguement of where we are going to hang out. there will be no cares and no worries.. well I guess that is all for now i guess.. I love you all Good night good day so long

Well let us see what this entry has for today.. well frist off I got my licence back and went out driving for a week.. I hung out with some good friends and some friends i haven't seen for awhile.. I would have never mad it though out the week if it wasn't for steph giving me gas money.. I thank you oh so very much steph.. but i had to cut my fun short due to a mecaniucal dificulty.. I Blew a break hose on my way to kent to pick up e-rock and take him home.. But i bought some break fluid and droped him, jewel, and steph off saftly and made my way home.. But now I am broke... And my car insurance is due by the 4th so who knows how i'm going to pay that.. Its $77 and some change.. I went out putting in applications basically anywhere that would take one.Hopefuly if i'm really lucky i can get a job and a pay check in time.. but on a lighter note.. on my last day out i got my hair cut... I Now have a freakin mowhawk and its freaking sweet!!! Freakin Woot. I tried dying it blue but the hair dye i tried using didn't stick so it washed right out... what a bummer.. Oh well Its going to be hard enough getting a job with a mowhawk lol... OH yea i me and my father temporarily ghetto riged my car.. We took apart the break hose and stuck a nail in the line so the break fluid wouldn't run through.. Eliminating the breaks on that tire.. so now my break preasure is back i just don't have alkl 4 breaks stoping me but it works for now..

I can't wait till mark & TJ make their triumphant return.. Which I've heard is going to be very soon.... I've missed Them so much while they were away but soon we will be reunited.. YAY!!! and dragonforce is coming up the same day my insurance is do.. so i'm exited for that...

well i don't have nothing else really to report so to my beloved readers... I LOVE YOU ALL!!! AND WISH YOU ALL THE BEST OF LUCK IN WHAT EVER IT IS YOU GUYS DO..

Later dayz

Well I got my car running enough to actually drive it.. I just got to fixed my tire and its good to go for now... Now i just gotta wait for the gov to say i can drive. and i'll be on my way

This afternoon when I had finally woken up I sat. at my computer and heard a pecking out side my window.. I look out and find a woodpecker, pecking away at the tree just outside my window. I watched it for a lil bit and completely oblivious to everything else.. I watched as it pecked deeper and deeper searching for food. I watched as it moved about the tree, putting its heads to the tree listening for movement of its food. i watched it until i finally lost sight of it when it moved around to the opposite side of the tree. I find it funny yet calming that the most simplest thing like a woodpecker, can take our attention away from this horrible world that were living in. And if you think about it. You find that our life isn't really that bad. When we think that nothing could get anyworse and things will never get better.. You find something that takes your attention just for a moment.. As if your mind is just desperatly trying to find somethiung else. And you think to yourself. about how beatuiful the little things are. and that maybe theres more in life.. Something that your missing. Maybe all the little things we ignore. Maybe they are the key. If only we could take time out of or hectic days and see how beautiful this would can actually be.. even in the cities you find lil bits of nature, that has adapted to survive.. If an animal can do it. why can't we? When times get tough all we think about is giving up. We should be trying to find ways to either get it back or adjust to the changes.

We have become so lazy.

Well I might as well give peolpe something decent enough to acctually read.. Every one else has poems and stuff so i think i'll make one up on the spot and see how it turns out....


As you dig deeper in my eyes
You ignore all my cries
For all you care is what I hide
Things I dare not confide

You rip me apart
I'm torn from limb to limb
The blood is gone
Your answers still unfound

And with the more you pry
A little more of me shall die
My sanitiy is hidden
What you seek is Forbidden

I dare not bare my soul
It is all of me I have
For my body has been pillaged
And nothing else is left

Yea I know I said I would never get one of these but what do you know here I am.. Well friends I hope your happy.

I don't know how ofter I will contrubute to this but will see i just might become an avid poster but I doubt it.. But hey you never know...